BOTTOM LINE:
I'm leaving DA. Actually, I left a long time ago, and I'm telling you that the odds of me coming back are less than Matsuda being Kira according to L. My art is staying. My favs are staying. Everything is staying just as it was, except for me. I may fav art every now and then and if you're lucky you'll get a comment out of me. I gotta admit, if you're reading this, you are probably a really cool person, especially if you read all of it.

No, I'm not physically dead. I'm
There's just...a year ago I'd say I didn't have time for DA. That's still the same, except I longer even feel like coming here.

My page has been dead for months. The last journal was in July. And then may before that. As a matter of fact, I think I left just shortly after DA's new design was put out. It's pretty nice, I gotta say. I'm not leaving because of it.

I....I must admit, I've been pleasantly surprised with the comments and favs I've gotten. 41 in activity and 19 favs. That's like, five times more than what I thought it would be after 4 months.

What happened almost 1 year ago?
Steve, on of my high school friends, committed suicide sometime in October 2007. I don't have the exact date. He was a Christian from a great Christian family, a great and funny guy, and as far as I know there was absolutely nothing that could've led him to it. His parents are among the greatest people I've ever met. Then, in early December they invited all of Steve's friends over for the day that would've been his birthday. We all got to know them and Steve better. And as we left, they said "If you ever need anything, someone to talk to or whatever you're always welcome here."

Then, almost exactly a week from that, on December 17, 2007. My father committed suicide. For him, I had seen it coming somewhat. I predicted that with all the problems he had with his job and his really poor choice of a new wife, that he would somewhere down the line be driven to suicide. But I thought that would've been years down the line, like 5 at least.

For a while I was....uncomfortable with the fact that I never shed a tear for either of them. I felt pretty down, though. For a long time, I had hated my father. Wished he was never around. But in the months before he died, I came to accept him for who he was. I did come to love him, forgive him, ignore the terrible mistakes he had made with his families. It didn't solve all his problems, though. I was at peace with him. And, like they offered, Steve's parents were right there. It felt so good to have them. I made it through, and with no loss of myself or who I am.

WHERE I AM TODAY.
I gotta confess, if I had two brain cells devoted to concentration I would be working on an English essay due in two days. And immediately after typing that, I took a 10 minute break to watch Family Guy. You see what I'm talking about?
Anyway, I'm in college now. University of Nebraska-Lincoln. Roomate's my best friend. Got a new laptop that can actually do things. I'm studying to be an English major....I guess? Classes are going....better than high school classes (That doesn't necessarily mean good).

I've been watching Death Note a second time around, Azumanga Daioh (50% hilarious, 50% cute, all good), Fate/Stay Night (which is definitely a must-see anime), and Lost and Gurren Lagann on Sci-Fi. Also, I watched a few episodes of Walker Texas Ranger and Law and Order. They are actually pretty good. I know understand why people make Chuck Norris jokes: he's live action Dragonball Z without energy blasts and Super Saiyan. Law and Order is good, but like Death Note it's only good if you pay attention a lot. Yeah, I never watched Lost until like a month ago. And I hate myself for not catching it when it was all the rage. At least I get a 4-hour block of it every week. Playing Xbox 360, Halo 3, Elder Scrolls Oblivion, Assassin's Creed, and just finished Grand Theft Auto IV and Bioshock (every acheivement except Brass Balls). Also Spore (my first PC game. Risk II doesn't f***ing count). Played the demo for Mirror's Egde and I want to buy or acquire it sometime in the future. My Wii and my DS are collecting dust. The PS2 not so much but it's well on its way after my roomate finished .hack//GU and moved onto Soul Calibur IV.

I had to leave certain things behing moving from Omaha to Lincoln. My family moved to a new house almost exactly a week after I moved to college so it was one hell of a departure. My girlfriend and I went to separate colleges, as we knew from the beginning. We went our different ways and ended on pretty good terms. No new girlfriend yet, but that's fine for now. I'm just hoping it doesn't take another 17 years to find one, though. Durrrr, okay.

My job with Gamestop had to end with the move, as the location out here doesn't have any open positions. I got a nice 2 foot illuminated PS2 light out of it, though. It's pretty much the coolest unique item in my possession. Anyway, my new job is conducting telephone surveys. The project they start everyone out on is the hardest, for Cox Communications where I ask them pretty much everything conceivable about cable, internet, and telephone stuff and this stupid thing is a survey over telephone for 30-40 minutes. Fortunately, the State Fair, Funeral Home, and Home Energy surveys they're putting me on are much shorter. Yeah, funeral home surveys by random telephone number. How fun is that, huh? To make it funnier, I found out my name is Anglo-Saxon for TERROR!!! [link] . "Hi, Terror here calling you about funeral homes." I'd say (compared to Gamestop), less interesting, less funny, easier, pays more, had VERY flexible hours setting my own schedule, and has me sitting at a computer with a headset for four hours every shift (which is close to what I do anyway).

GOODBYE
Well guys, it's been fun. If you still think anything of me, I hope you liked me a little. Thought I was a little cool. If you've read all this, I'd say you're cool too. And maybe even if you didn't.

I feel very happy with my life. It's had its bumps here and there, but so has everyone's. I haven't stopped writing stories and they haven't stopped getting better. I like where my life is, and where it's going doesn't look too bad either. I look at life very positively. I hope you guys do too,

I wish you all the best. Well, I'm off to do something productive.....hopefully. AAAAAND therin lies my positive attitude! see you guys.

-Brogan
-SuperSaiyanLink
-Crose Buhrn